This is a very personal post and has nothing to do with the blog but, I am posting it anyway.
Sadly, I lost one of my three dogs early this morning.
When I got home last night, I saw that Alex (one of the Bumbling Brothers) couldn't stand or sit up. He was not in any apparent pain so, I sat with him & waited for morning and the vet to open. Around 4:30 AM he lost consciousness but,... he was still breathing...Shallow. I couldn't get him to respond to anything so, I carried him to the car to get him to the 24 hour vet. His brother, Sam stood by and watched quietly as I carried his brother away.
The vet quickly tended to Alex and within a few minutes the vet told me Alex was bleeding internally as a result of cancer. "If" he could stabilize for surgery, his odds of recovering were low. I knew he had little chance of regaining any quality of life if I put him thru the pain of treating his condition.
It was hard to do but, at 5:35 AM, I held his head next to mine while the vet gave him the shot and within a few seconds, Alex quietly let out his last breathe.
I am a total mess now but, the other Bumbling Brother, Sam is next to me and Sassy is resting her head on my thigh and they are somehow holding me together.
Alex will be cremated and when the day comes that I die... Alex, Bo (former golden) and Max (first dog) will all be buried with me.
It is easy for me to know why dogs have always been such a big part of my life... They are the most loyal creatures on earth and no matter what happens with your life, they will always be there for you no matter what.
Thanks for being a great friend, Alex. You made a huge impact on my life and you will be missed!